I used to be really good at drawing and I identified as someone who could draw. It was part of my identity for a very long time. Then all of a sudden I just sort of stopped drawing. Not really sure why I did so but the fact is that I did.
When I was a kid I would draw every day. It was my way to deal with the world. If I was happy I would draw, if I was sad I would draw, if I was angry I would draw. I wanted to go into animation. And I think I was pretty good at one point. Looking back on my drawings now I still feel like a good chunk og them are quiet impressive. I am going to add some of them through out this post.
And then I just… Stopped….
Now I dread drawing. I never know what to draw because I feel like it’s never as good as I expect myself too be. 80% of the time I do draw these days I fail. But then there are those instances where I get a really good idea and everything works and it is even better than 4 or 5 years ago when I was at my “best”.
I don’t think I’ve necessarily gotten worse at drawing. I’m definitely not as comfortable with the movements and such as I was back then. I think the real issue is that my development has stagnated. Which is completely logic as I haven’t really practiced.
It has me in a bad spiral. I don’t want to draw because I feel like I’m not good enough anymore, and I wont get better because I don’t draw anymore.
Of cause I draw a bit at school, but it is in a very different way.
I’m following a lot of artists on instagram and I love their work but I don’t know if it is helping me to fall back in love with drawing or holding me back because I feel inadequate in comparison to them…
So the point of this post is that I want to fall back in love with drawing and slowly get comfortable with it again.
So I’m thinking of doing a little series here on the blog sharing my progress. I think that if I have someone to be responsible to.
The goal is to draw a drawing/illustration a week. But as we all know I don’t really do well with that here on the blog… Never the less I will try to do that in real life and then share as often as possible!
The main goal is to get comfortable with classical drawing. As in pencil and paper (or paint and watercolor) but I might throw in a digtital drawing every once in a while.
The motive of the drawings will be random, what ever I feel like (maybe I’ll throw some architecture drawings in there). There will be no pressure on me to do any kind of finished illustration. Sometimes it might be a doodle because the most important is just for me to draw something.
If you have any ideas for drawings please let me know. And PLEASE keep me accountable for this, I think that will help me get back into the sving of it!